Songs

The first five songs are all newly recorded and the links should be working.
I hope to get to rerecord the others and have them up soon!

Sometimes I know what your going to say
Before I hear your voice
And I'm good at guessing what you will choose
Before you make your choice
And I always know when you are sad
And you need someone to touch you
And I know what makes you happy
And I know what makes you mad
I know what makes you laugh

And sometimes when we're talking
You've nothing much to say
And I can tell if you're listening
Or if your mind is far away

Do you know me this well
Can you read my mind?
Sometimes I think you can tell
Sometimes I think you're blind

And sometimes when we're talking
You ask me why I smile
Perhaps it's just a feeling
Or a look I thought I caught in your eye

I think I know you too well
That I cannot not see

And that is why I've got to touch
Someone who makes me feel this much
And that is why I need to be
So close to one, so close to me

And sometimes when we're talking
I've nothing much to say
But what I didn't tell you
Are all the things, I've tried to today

Come forth, you have entered my realm
There is no returning home unchanged
I will not suffer secrets from my eyes
My light shines where even shadow lies

Come forth
I know the burden that you bear
Your heart tells you there is danger here
I will not belay your fear, come forth

Look now in my mirror if you dare
It could bring you hope or leave you in despare
Vision can make even wise men blind
Do not think because you seek you will find

Look now
How the past has brought you here
Look now
The future is never so clear
And you do not know what's really real
Except the way you feel
All else could be a dream
All else could be a dream

Take heart, this task was given unto you
And hope remains while your friends are true

Go now on the path that you must take
You must not hesitate

Go now!

Lorien our home for ages
Found we shelter in your open arms
Lothlorien your Lady orders
Within your borders
A haven from all harm.

Lorien lacey catherals
Lit with diamonds
Like stars up in the sky
Lothlorien we once adorned you
But now we mourn with you
For we must say good-bye

Lorien gone your protectors
To 'fend another
You face abandonment
Lothlorien lend them your pardon
Haldir your guardian
Now knows the taste of death

Lorien now who will tend you
When seasons bend you
Will mortals ever care?
Lothlorien green velvet heather floors
Never more
Our Elven feet to bare.

Beautiful Dancer

Trust

Freedom's Slave

Beautiful Dancer, chains on your feet
Nothing can hold you back, if your heart is free
Performance conforms you, a bird in a cage
And critics betray you to words on a page
Please don't stop dancing, there's hope in sight
Open your heart wings, take flight

In a room full of mirrors, you'll judge what you see
Each time you take a fall you just look at me
I'll build you a castle, out of this cave
So stop putting flowers on my empty grave

I want you to dance, love. I want you to see
Your dancing is beautiful to me

Beautiful dancer, beautiful child
What I wouldn't die to give, just to see you smile
Please don't stop dancing, there's hope in sight
Open your heart wings, take flight.

Go on take y hand, it's yours tonight.
I haven't got the strength
To put up another fight.

I know how you feel for me
You've told me several times.
But if I've heard a thousand promises, then I've heard a thousand lies.

And Trust.
Some people play it just like a game
I have met some fine cheaters in my day
I don't want to fall again too soon
I respect myself too much
That is why I feel justified
To suspect your every touch

Now don't think that I'm judging you
Cause I don't know you very well
It's just my heart hasn't healed
From the last time that I fell

I wanna believe is someone
That someone could be you
I just have to know for sure
That your love will be true

Cause Trust.
Some people play it just like a game
I have met some fine cheaters in my day
I don't want to fall again too soon
I respect myself too much
That is why I feel justified
To suspect your every touch

I don't want to be afraid of your love
I don't want to be afraid
I don't want to play some game
I don't want to be afraid of your love
I don't want to be afraid
I don't want to play these game

And sometimes when I see so strong
That's when I'm really weak
And that is when I'm so glad
You don't know me

So if you really want to love me
You will say you understand
And you won't ask me for more
Than holding my hand...

(repeat chorus)

I often find myself to be Freedom's Slave

Struggling not to need what I want
There's such a fine line between love and hate
Neither is easy to give up

And I have found myself on fire
Though I have been frozen for years
And I can sing joy like a choir
As I cry fountains of tears

There's nothing new under the blue, blue sky
And yet I still feel so naive
As time keeps on passing he blows my mind
Pulling out mysteries from his sleeve

And I have found myself on fire
Though I have been frozen for years
And I can sing joy like a choir
As I cry fountains of tears

Whatever's in my mind is in my heart
My heart's a reflection of my soul
The very same thing that is tearing me apart
At the very same time's making me whole

And I have found myself on fire
Though I have been frozen for years
And I can sing joy like a choir
As I cry fountains of tears

God Feels

Don't Ask me

I Am A Puzzle

Some say that you are cruel with your power
Some say that you judge too hard
Some say that you are passive and uncaring
Or that you are far

But who can guess the joy and love of God?
And who will wonder what makes you cry?
And why you would want to live among us,
Or want to die?

I wonder what it's like to have a broken heart
As big as your heart is
To see your children running away from you
And giving up their will to live

Though you went and made the only way
To bring your children back to you
It seems as if believing is the hardest thing for them to do

All your tears are in the rain
And the wind is your frustration
Bitter cold, winter; your pain

You hold all the power in the universe
You see all time in your view
And yet you freely give us the choice to love you

And I wonder what it's like to have a heart of love
As big as your heart is
To see your children run to you with open arms
Lift me up daddy I want to give you a kiss

All your tears are in the rain
And the wind is your frustration
But the warmth of the sun is your joy

Beautiful woman came and asked me to dance
Amazing woman looking for romance
Confident and several years older
I spilled my drink and I shook as I told her

I'm not good enough for you though I would love you and adore you
I just can't be what you need and in the end you'll leave
So my heart is begging you please
Don't ask me

She smiled at me and took my hand, 'I'm not looking for a superman'
I just need someone to care
I just want someone to be there

A few weeks into it we were still going strong
She said that me and her kids would really get along
One was nine the other a little bit older
I looked away and I fearfully told her

I'm not good enough for them though I would love them and adore them
But I can't be what they need and in the end you'd leave
So my heart is begging you please
Don't ask me.

She smiled at me and took my hand, 'I'm not looking for a superman'
I just need someone to care
I just want someone to be there

A few months later she wanted so much more
Wouldn't let me leave her at the door
I knew what she wanted she couldn't be bolder
I wanted her too but I fearfully told her

I'm not good enough for them though I love you and adore you
But I can't be what you need and in the end you'd leave
So my heart is begging you please
Don't ask me.

She smiled at me and took my hand, 'I'm not looking for a superman'
I just need someone to care
I just want someone to be there

One year later I got on my knee
I took her hand and asked her to marry me
Forever I wanted to hold her
I almost cried as I told her

I'm not good enough for you but I'll always love you and adore you
I want to try to be what you need
I want to make us a family
But she said 'I'm begging you please..
Don't ask me'.

She turned away and let go of my hand, 'Why you want to be a superman'
I just need someone at home
I just didn't want to be alone

A weeks now and she's back with her ex
I'm left all alone wondering what's coming next
Now that I'm wiser and older
I wish I could have told her

You're not good enough for me
You never loved me or adored me
You just can't be what I need and if that man ever leaves
Don't come back begging me please
Don't ask me.

A paradox is what I seem to be
Misunderstood and slightly feared
I exude incongruity
I contradict my on philosophy

Cause I am a puzzle
I am a puzzle

The relevance of fingers touching me
The eloquent words in my mind
The consequence when you can plainly see
Missing pieces no one could find

Cause I am a puzzle
I am a puzzle

How do I stay pieced together
How do I prove I'm not insane?
When no one seems understand
The image that remain

Dust in the rain

And so I lay on this card table
Broken and torn apart
Nothing seems to fit anymore
And there's empty space in my heart

Cause I a puzzle
I am a puzzle

A puzzle short of one piece
A puzzle short of one piece

Mr. Philosophy

It's you

Pendulum.

You could read a thousand books and analyze every line
Then you'd take another look to question it a thousand times
Philosophy you use to unwinde
Oh, what a mind

Then you'd jump a thousand times from a plane in the sky
Tempting fate with a fall just to feel what eagles call
Souring way above in the air
With only a cloth hanging there

Fly away, falling free
Faith in cloth Mr. Philosophy

You say it clears your thinking when you're jumping into the wind
Things are in perspective then you understand what's important
Do you ever question why
When you're in the sky

Why when it comes to love
Is the choice too hard to make
Why when it comes to love
Is the chance too much to take
Your logic seems to build a wall
Afraid of this fall

Fly away with me
Trust your heart Mr. Philosophy

Love is like a plane high in the sky
Jump from it's wing, give our love a try
Question what you feel
Find out if it's real

Then fly away with me
Open your heart Mr. Philosophy

Who tells me
That he loves me
When I'm lonely
And blue?

Who holds me
When I cry?
Who kisses my tears goodbye?

You know, it's you, it's you
You always know
Just what to do

And when I feel so scared
Who comforts me?
My burden's shared
By a giant who loves me

Who gives me
His sweet love?
Who is it
I'm dreaming of?

You know

It's you...

More brush more logs on the fire
The flames growing brighter and higher
The smoke and the heat drawing nigher

I'll run when the pendulum swings
I'll run when the pendulum swings

The cloud's growing darker above me
The rain he is thinking of me
I wonder if he really loves me

I'll run when the pendulum swings
I'll run when the pendulum swings

Ah....Ah...Ah...

I'll run when the pendulum swings

Inside something is falling
Outside something is calling
And me I am just stalling

I'll run when the pendulum swings
I'll run when the pendulum swings